Struggle of a Soldier

(Unedited memories of one of our American heroes in battle)

 

I erase from my heart the past

...and the unpleasant memories

Though I knew that one day they might be coming back

Coming back and unwrap   the terrible  experiences Those agonizing feelings in the battle to survive.

 

I used to talk to god  demanding for answers

Why life is unpredictable - I asked - despite of all the facts

"The unknown is uncertain but you must know better

Because times go around and always come back"

 

Not happy with the answer but as a true believer

I found  in myself the courage to encounter my fate Now I am facing my past ... maybe just temporarily But the flash of those memories

...do not easy  depart

 

Soon... I’ll leave my family, my roots and my hometown

My comrades are not here, some wounded, some are gone

I am a Marine, a Soldier... lack of emotions, aggressive

But screaming in silence   everyday during war.

 

I   gave my word to my nation, and to my flag in this uniform.

And I will honor my pledge with my life if I have to I know some may believe I am a soldier not human Please forgive me if I fail, I am just telling my  truth